Flowers in the Attic

A seed was hidden underneath layer of dust,

Let alone in the dark closet,

Every second anticipating to be found.

Xtra odinary touch of love breathed life into me,

I was a dormant seed from a withered plant,

Most cared for once upon a time,

I lived again because you watered me,

Sprouting my first shoots,

Saplings started sprouting more leaves ,

Your faith and love,

Often the sunshine nurturing me,

Until I became dependent,

Sometimes deprived of sunshine,

Only to realise I yellowed and leaves were shed,

Much sunshine I will need, even minutes of ray will do,

Until I became a tree,

Coping with growth in this attic,

Hoping to bloom flowers one day as an appreciation for the life you breathed.

The Boy Next Door

A very meaningful short film in its own way.

Smile

Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by...

If you smile
With your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just...

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just...

Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by...

If you smile
Through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile...

That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile

p/s: no matter is good day, bad day, tiring day, hectic day, moody day, hyper day, horny day, cold day, warm day....YOU WILL ALWAYS BE A REASON FOR A SMILING DAY. HOPE YOU FEEL THE SAME, SMILE EVERYDAY NO MATTER HOW YOUR DAY TURNED OUT TODAY =)

Aimless day

An aimless day, with no iniative to wake up early,

An aimless day, with plan to follow but no motivation to get it done,

An aimless day, with no idea of what today is all about,

An aimless day, with cakes and coffee for breakfast but ended up having only cakes,

An aimless day, knowing the coffee will spill but still being ignorant,

An aimless day, ended up with no coffee but a mess to clean,

An aimless day, with cakes that tasted different and ended up coughing it out,

An aimless day, with things to do but ended up sleeping,

An aimless day, with the usual routine but is seems more routined today,

An aimless day, with no concentration despite piles of work yet to be done,

An aimless day, drifting around with the flow of the wind,

An aimless day, is a wasted day,

An aimless day leading to aimless post of not even knowing how to end this post.

Do you experience your aimless day?

An aimless day, because my bow and arrow were ready but the target was no where to be seen.

What goes around comes around

Being much younger back then, there was not much consideration in me for others. I do not really care about others and how my action will affect them.

I expect others to please my need all the time, and if they failed, they will face some nastiness from me. Despite that, they still cared for me, in which I am truly blessed.

I have seen someone enduring all the nastiness from me and still continued caring for me. It has made me wonder, why is that person so stupid?

Well, is because that person loved you.

It made me realised how immature I am and I slowly begin to change over the years.

The trait is still in me, but I know better now and think twice before acting on my inconsideration.

As the saying said, "What goes around comes around"

You never realised how you affected others until it affected you. Once a while, I got those treatment from others, exactly the same with how I behaved back then, it hurts and definitely do not understand why you are being treated that way.

But I cannot blame them, I was not a perfect person myself.

Do not unto others, what you do not wish to be done unto you.

Being too clingy

What do you feel when you have someone who cling on you where ever you go 24/7 or maybe need you around constantly?

Don't you find that person annoying?

Don't he has a life?

It does not matter how close both the person can be, but if you need to stick to someone every minute or even second of the day, it starts to get annoying, not to the person clinging but to that person being clinged.

Everyone need some moment alone, their own privacy, to either finish their work or have some self-reflection moment. Or at least a balance and exposure to other people instead of the same person everday.

How pathetic is someone who don't have anyone but only one person for them to cling on.

I was guilty of all that many years ago, not that I do not have any life, but I just found one centre point of attention, and become totally ignorant and only focus to that centre point. It has come to a point, my world will not move without that person around.

And it is because of that, when that person leave you, you become totally devastated.

Nobody like someone who needed attention all the time. You may be free, but someone else is busy. Or you may be busy but someone is free. When time like this happened, both party must know how to respect each other.

It does not mean that person love you less or think of you less if they do not attend to you every second of the day. Sometimes, even the person who love you most has got something else to worry about beside you alone.

Give each other ample breathing space, not only it creates a healthier relationship, but it also makes both party love each other more.

As the saying said, "Absence makes the heart grow fonder"

You will appreciate each other better when you see less or heard less of each other. And every opportunity to see other will be cherished and become memorable.

Less is more ;)

p/s: Despite writing this, I cannot help but to be annoying sometimes. You can categorise it as attention seeking, but I would always want see someone I loved in person everyday if possible, even for friends. I know the boundaries, and certainly aware of things that should not be done. No worries. =)

If you love someone, you have to be selfless

I closed my eyes, I slept, I woke up and I smiled. Knowing that I will be awake everday with you in my life. Is happier than everything I had so far.

I closed my eyes. Fear creeped in. Afraid I will be awake knowing you are no longer around. No longer loving me. No longer part of my life. No longer cares for me. And the worst will be knowing that you are now belonged to someone but that person is not me.

The constant thing that keep bothering me. I am just too afraid to go through it again. The feeling of losing someone you loved so much.

As days go by, I stepped deeper into this infatuation, unable to control myself, the feelings just developed as I opened myself and bring myself closer to you.

Yes..and your reciprocation to every step taken by me just catalysed the whole development of my feelings for you. I never expect it to develop that fast and suprisingly so solid.

But I'm just afraid. Telling myself to hold my feelings for you is almost impossible. It will never happen that way. Is true, you do not suddenly decide that you love a person. It comes without knowing.

Yes, I know you will tell me now that your feelings for me will not change and it will last. But none of us can guarantee what will happen in the future. As the song sang, Que serra serra, the future not ask to see. Who knows what will happen tomorrow right?

No point thinking so far. But I just cannot stop thinking ahead. I am selfish I know when it comes to love. I know that if you really love somebody, you should wish him happy. And that does not neccesarily mean his happiness is with you. But I will wish is forever with me.

I do not know what will happen, but I certainly know, there will be insatisfaction and difficulties faced. I have lots to learn and tonnes to improve. I am not even sure if I will succeed in life.

Yes, we can have big dreams, but no promises of achieving them. We only keep trying till we succeed. It sometimes just make me dumbfounded, I do not know where to start on realising my dreams. The only I can do right now is at least passed my exam and graduate faster. One thing I am sure, there will be a lot hardwork before I can succeed.

I just hope, I do not disappoint the person I love most again.

No one can tell what will happen in future. Only God knows. I can only do my part and do my best.

p/s: I know you will sure scold me for being silly. Is just one of those deep thought I had yesterday, not planning to post it, but after reading a post written by a blogger, feel like posting it. I think too much...sorry, yesterday suddenly quite emo xD