Theme Park? Fun Fair?

Hearing the voice of excitement from people screaming, the familiar looping music from the machines, the beeping sound and laughter from passerby...

The smell of the freshly popped popcorn and the sight of colorful candies and candy floss,

The glimmering colorful light from the graceful ferris-wheel, the sight of roller-coaster, pirate ship, haunted house, the game booth where people trying their luck so hard to get a doll which they can most probably afford to buy them in a store....

I feel like visiting a funfair or theme park, I can safely said is close to a decade since I last been to one. I remembered when I was a kid, is a norm to see fun fair being set up near your housing area. These days, I don't even see any. Maybe people have found other source of entertainment that made the fun fair business not worth embarking.

I somehow prefer the sight of those rides and machines at night, it appear more magical and plus you do not need worry about blazing hot sun.

Having no one to accompany me on those trips with parents to Genting Highlands, I feel like an adult even as a kid. I never have any keen feeling to go for any ride. The very fact that I am not allowed to go and no one to accompany me has made me keep those excitement beneath me. As time goes by, I have accepted that is ok I never get a chance to ride on those machines.

Sometimes I have this idea of maybe going alone one day and tried out all the ride, moreover my uni is just right next to a theme park!!

But I know being me I will most probably abandon the whole idea, few years back maybe I still enjoyed going alone, but these days I will never want visit those kinda places alone, I would never even consider watching a movie in a cinema alone.

If I ever go to a theme park again, I would want try to ride the roller coaster, but I do not know whether I will like it or not also.

And besides fun fair and theme park, something else I also missed is going for a circus!

But now I think circus encouraged animal cruelty, still is nice to watch those performance ...

Those were the times...

Reminiscence...

Half a year has gone

Should have written this post last month but due to procrastination it was delayed until now, July is coming to an end as well...

I'm really grateful that in this past six months nothing bad has happened but only good memories. Although my life has not became very colorful, it is certainly very different as compared to before meeting him...

A quick recap on what happened in last six months:

1) Done and submitted my thesis.
2) Found a bf. ( Long long story...)
3) First time knock someone's car ><
4) Climbed Broga hill.
5) Failed all my progress test and mock exam, did not study consistently but work very hard before finals and now praying that I will pass the two papers. I just need a pass ><
6) Came out to "Alex" again and finally bridged the friendship that was broken.
7) Owned an Iphone 4 :)
8) Get to know more friends from the rainbow world.
9) First time getting a summon!
10) Been sexually active. :) im no longer dry...hahahaha

In conclusion, this past six months, is mainly about how life is different being in a relationship. That will be for another post. But I have to say, is the sweetest six months I had and is still continuing happily. Although I am still the dull and boring me, but I am no longer lonely! In fact, there is two less lonely people in this world jor...hahahaha

That is all for now. ;)

100 Facts about me- Part 1

This post is dedicated to Mr Forest ;)





1.I am currently in a relationship :)


2.I am having my first serious relationship.


3.I am still a v-i-r-g-i-n. Oooops...LOL. Waiting for someone to change that fact :-x


4.I used to hate guys. LOL


5.I never thought of liking someone younger before. LOL


6.I like seeking attention from the one I love :p and is actually very clingy :-x


7.I am a morning person.


8.I am afraid of height.


9. I can't swim. Trying to change that fact.


10. I am very impatient. Trying to change that fact.


11.I used to like sleeping on the floor but not anymore. I can't sleep without a bed now.


12.My least favourite vege is brinjal unless it is fried ;)


13.I don't eat beef because I pity cow. But I love lamb...LOL :p


14.I have never board an airplane and a ship before.


15.I have never ride a roller coaster before.


16.I never been to oversea before and my furthest is Perak.


17.I can't speak English until standard 4.


18.I used to be very scare of dogs and never dare to touch them.


19.I feel like sleeping if I am down with troubles.


20.I am a very curious person and can go till great extend to satisfy my curiousity ;p


21.I never ride a motorbike before :(


22.I used to be afraid of the supernatural(ghost to be exact) until I got immune to them.


23.My least favourite colour is pink.


24.It is very easy to make me laugh but very difficult to make me cry.


25.When I was a kid, I love looking at the clouds and imagining them as monsters and dragons fighting in the air. Till today I still enjoy looking at the clouds. ;)


26.When I was a kid, I hate Bah Kut Teh the most; but today, it has became my favourite xD


27.I am a big kid and never like serious and mature stuff. But I have got no choice, I need to grow up in order to cope with life. But no matter how difficult is life, it does not kill the kid in me :p


28.I love anything that has to do with robots, monsters, dragons, magical or things that I can assemble ;) I seldom like cute stuff actually...LOL


29.I hate gardening and plants usually end up dying if being taken care by me. haha


30.I enjoy seafood more than meat. I must have fish everyday if possible.


31.I like any vegetables that is leafy but my favourite vegetable is ladies finger.


32.Having money won't make me happy, is what I can do with the money that make me happy.


33.I cannot sit or stand quietly. I don't like staying at home unless I am tired.


34.The thing I never like receiving for birthday is mug or cup. Lucky I only received once. That is because I only feel comfortable using my current mug.


35.I never like the idea of giving or receiving undergarment as Birthday or Christmas gift either. Is ok if I get it on normal days.


36.I buy clothes because I need to look good and not because I enjoy buying them. I will get headache each time I need to shop for clothes. It will be really great to have someone with good taste helping me to choose and decide for me.But must have good taste because I am very picky :p


37.I am no longer sensitive to coffee. ;)


38.I have got short term memory loss.


39.I am a very touchy feely person and need body or skin contact all the time. But only from my partner!


40.I need a lot freedom and is the thing I am always fighting for.


41. I love travelling but never had the chance to indulge in it because is too costly.


42. I need enough money and will feel insecure if I don't.


43.Is difficult for me to get along with someone who is very stingy. There is a diffrence between spending wise and being stingy.


44.I don't like to talk after eating a full meal. LOL


45.I enjoy going cinema. I enjoy watching movies and do not mind any movie as long as it is not the draggy type.



46.I don't really talk much unless I need to. Therefore, I can be quite a quiet person and is ok not talking at all. Therefore, I need to find someone I feel comfortable being silent. I found it :)


47.I may appear unfriendly and that is because I am shy.


48.I am force to memorise the whole multiple table up to 12*12 at the age of 6.


49.Im a big fan of Transformers.

50. I don't remember when I last wrote whatever I am writing in this post! *GOSH* >

How much is the right amount?

I am new.
I am inexperience.
I have a traditional mindset.
I do not want to appear like very annoying or what the chinese would have call it, "fan"(烦).
Over-controlling or maybe over protective. Sometimes maybe is my fault. I do not understand that my partner is not a girl.
Or maybe I do not understand the other person.
This post was originally long. But I have deleted them. Sometimes I think I even need to choose my words.
I have no idea why things have to be so formal. I tried opening up to you sometimes, but no matter how much assurance you gave me that is ok for me to be open to you, I still remain very concious. Is as though I have a good image to protect. Don't you notice you just proven is not so ok to seek others for help?
Sometimes I just lost track. I think I am doing the right thing for doing this and that, but I never ask if is really what you want. I may think what I did is the right thing, but you may see it as maybe too much, over controlling or maybe over protective.
Or you would have think, "C'mon, I am not a kid ok?"
This post was originally very long, but I just do not want make you uncomfortable by writing too much of unneccessary thing.
So, I will just stick to the main point.
You just need tell me what is your need. I totally respect that. I believe everyone need is different. I may have think I am giving you what I think you need, but to you is actually not what you really need. And at the end of the day, you are basically still deprived of what you need.
I am not doing anything for you to satisfy my personal ego. I do it because I cared. There are things I am incapable of doing sometimes, but each little thing I think I can do it, I have done what I could in my ability to do it.
Maybe you should tell me what are the right thing to do. Sorry, I have not been someone's boyfriend before. There are many do's and don't I am not aware of.
I do not want to be doing the unneccessary thing all the time whilst missing those that I should have done.
I am not here just to utter I love you everyday for fun. I believe in action. What I can do for you, is how I can show I cared and love you.
I believed we are here to help each other progress in life. There are certainly more than just being romantic.
Last but not least, all I have done is just because I cared, but I may have been excessive sometimes, I do not know.
You just need tell me what you need. I admit I need direct clue from you. Don't beat around the bush.
p/s: this post is not well written, I just do not know how to put it in right words. But the main emphasis is, maybe you should tell me what is your definition of a boyfriend. I will always respect your need. Believe me.

End of year is coming!

Ever since I started uni life, I have 2 new year in one year :O
In fact, my school is having Christmas celebration this May! Early Christmas... =.="
But we cannot help it, June and December is like end of the year for us. When May creeps in, is the season of tense and pressure. Everyone has got no mood for jokes anymore. But still, we will go for movies and birthday celebration to keep a balance to the stressful month.
It is in fact the time of the year where everyone need lots of encouragement and motivation. Hair pulling and kiasu-ism is a common sight during this period.
As for me, time passed really fast as usual, studying my course is like riding a bullet train, time just slip pass you without notice.
I have to gladly report a zero wastage of day this year. ;)
Everyday was utilised and there is no time for mind wandering or entertaining the Mr Moody in me.
But is indeed really time to be really serious and focus.
Fight fight fight fight! Just hope everything will remain smooth as it is until finals is over.
Definitely looking forward to the semester break after finals!

i've been working hard so long

seems like pain has been my only friend

my fragile heart's been done so wrong

i wondered if i'd ever heal again

ohh just like all the seasons never stay the same

all around me i can feel a change (ohh)

i will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me

leave the past behind me, today my life begins

a whole new world is waiting it's mine for the taking

i know i can make it, today my life begins

yesterday has come and gone

and i've learn how to leave it where it is

and i see that i was wrong

for ever doubting i could win

ohh just like all the seasons never stay the same

all around me i can feel a change (ohh)

i will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me

leave the past behind me, today my life begins

a whole new world is waiting it's mine for the taking

i know i can make it, today my life begins

life's to short to have regrets

so i'm learning now to leave it in the past and try to forget

only have one life to live

so you better make the best of it

i will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me

leave the past behind me, today my life begins

a whole new world is waiting it's mine for the taking

i know i can make it, today my life begins

i will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me

leave the past behind me, today my life begins

a whole new world is waiting it's mine for the taking

i know i can make it, today my life begins

today my life begins...

My life begins this year in fact... ;) Definitely won't give up so easily till it gets better!

Short term memory lost or premature-Alzheimeir?

Today is really a weird day.

It was suppose to be a great day, but I do not know which part of my brain went wrong.

I was at dear's place until 8pm when I needed go home already. So quickly left and when I stepped out of his house,something striked my mind.

I forgot to take my bag.

However, I decided to just forget about it as I needed to rush home and I knew there was nothing important in the bag. I can just take it tomorrow.

Dear called when I just drove out of his house, informing that I forgot to take my bag, but I told him I will just take it next time since there was nothing important.

I never know that decision will be the beginning of my trouble for the day. >< When I reached home, as usual I will take my key and open the gate. As usual, the key will be in my pocket or in the car. Ei...where is my key?? Find both the pocket and all over the car still cannot find my key. I was blanked for a moment. Only then I realised...OMG!! I left it in the bag!!! Still unable to accept the truth, I continued ransacking the car and my pocket hoping to find the key. I was trying hard to think what I should be doing at that point. Staring at the gate but unable to open it. Telling my mom that I forgot to bring home the key and asking her to open the door is certainly a death option. I am going to be skin alive if she know I lost my key ><

At that point, I was panicking. I know the key must be a dear's place. But I cannot be too sure. But I know it cannot be anywhere else. I have not went anywhere today. So, quickly call dear but no one pick up the phone. Called again and again, no one pick up the phone T____T Why when you are in panic, everything just went wrong? I am not sure if he is showering. So I decieded instead of wasting time making phone calls that no one will answer, I just accelerate and head to dear's place.

While driving half way, dear called me and I quickly told him to look for my key inside the bag. True enough, the key was inside the bag. Ok, at least I know my key is safe. But knowing that I need to go through the heavy traffic after the bad rain just to get a key and knowing I should be home now just make me feel so hopeless. All I can do is just to stop thinking about it and focus on driving. When I reached dear's place, I called him to take the bag out. I was waiting in the car and wondering why he took so long to come out. You see, when you are rushing, everything seems very slow to you. When he finally come out, I nearly laughed. He is walking so happily carrying my bag on his shoulder. He gave me my bag and I asked if he had his dinner. Before waving goodbye, he give me a flying kiss. And after saying goodbye, he stand outside the car and start drawing two heart with an arrow on the condensed car window glass. I laughed...I am happy, but I was rushing too >< So quickly rush home while glancing at the drawing on the window whenever the car slow down. Silly boy! LOL Finally reached home. Feed my dog. Then want to throw rubbish already, when dear called me and informing me that he need to go to sleep already. Wished him goodnight and I continued packing the rubbish. When I need to open the door, I realised my key is missing again!! ><" But this time I just use my mom's key. After got home, I need go dinner but still haven't found my key. I know is inside the house, maybe I misplaced it somewhere. I decided to find the key after dinner.

After dinner...

Start to look for the key in my room. Searched everywhere for it, in my bag, on my bed, on the table, on the floor...I cannot find it!! T___T Start to panic again, find in the kitchen and all over the house but still cannot find it. Why is my key running from me today? T___T I stand for a while and start recalling what I have done when I got home. Maybe I accidentally throw the key away with the rubbish! :O Quickly go find the rubbish and start searching, still cannot find it. I was so hopeless, where has my key gone??? I know is in the house but I cannot find it. Search again high and low at every corner of the house. The possible place is only kitchen and my room. Room don't have. Look really hard in the kitchen, still cannot find!!! T___T Finally, I saw the waste basket in the kitchen and my mind just tell me to look inside the basket.

At first I cannot find anything, but I suddenly saw something very familiar...My precious KEY!!!! HOW ON EARTH IT ENDED UP IN THE WASTE BASKET??? I know that I must have unconciously throwed the key away into the waste basket. T___T

Finally after I found my key, I changed my clothes in my room when I saw RM 10 notes in the envelope on my table. How come got money geh??? I quickly look into the envelope and found RM 20 inside there. Then I feel in my pocket and there is RM 10 notes in the pocket. Ha??!! Since when I put money in the envelope???

Ok...this is not the first time such thing happened, there are many times when I really cannot remember that I have done something. For example, I locked the door before going out. When I was half way already, I suddenly cannot remember if I have locked the door, and being unable recall it, I quickly go home again and to find that the door is indeed locked. T___T There are also sometimes when I misplaced my spectacle and I have to look all over for it! Sometimes when I am taking down notes, I do not realised that I am writing the same thing twice!!

The chinese would have call this: Zi gei hak zi gei ( scare yourself)

Usually such incident happened when I am running on auto-pilot. My mind is thinking of other thing but my hand and body is working on another thing. This resulted in me not knowing what I have done >< I do not know why, my mind just keep running 24/7 unless I am asleep. Even when I am talking to someone, my mind could be thinking of something else.

Think too much...should really stop thinking and day dreaming. ARGHH!! ><

What do you think?

Meme, as got tagged by Calvin.

1. What is in your mind right now?
Thinking of what to do tomorrow, how to finish revising and prepare for presentation @.@

2. Who is your role model?
No specific one, I get new role model all the time, observe people around me and pick up the good traits that I think worth following, or anyone with strong character and will to succeed, is impressing :p

3. What is your biggest fear?
Spend my life without love, being alone and being poor.

4. What talent do you wish to have? (No magical stuff)
To speak in any language and able sing :p

5. What is the one thing you want to change about yourself?
Cannot be only one, there are a lot I want improve on myself >< from physical to personality.

6. Who is your fictional hero?
Doraemon :p

7. Was your course of study during college/university a choice of your passion or a demand from your parents?
Neither.

8. Which item you cannot live without: handphone or computer?
Handphone

9. What is your dream job?
Movie director/ Successful entrepreneur.

10. Would you pose nude in a series of photographs for a million dollar? (Note: Currency is one million in your own country's value)
yes, why not? Million dollar for ur photo? I must be so gorgeous to worth that much xD

Who I want tag:

Alex (Lil tidbits of life)