I really do not know what is happening. Why am I always like this? Why? Is it really so hard making a decision? I really do not know want to know what other think of me anymore. To those who read my blog, I am actually a form 6 student. I really do not like talking about my life. It is really nothing to talk about. Is not that I did not achieve anything in life. In fact I did. But life just seem lost. I felt very useless about myself. I completed SPM in year 2006. After that I thought life will change for me. I will be a better person in life. But it never did. What is wrong with me? My mind is corrupted, I can't think clearly. I am really so low in self confidence. My self confidence decline as years went by. I can clearly remember when I was like 13-15 yrs old, I used to have so much of self confidence. I am really so outgoing. I believe in myself. Everything seems easy to me. I did not need to think hard or think twice. I am so socialble. I have so many friends. Something happened. Many things happened. That thing had happened. Yes, it has. My mind is corrupted. I became so sensitive, so antisocial, so fake. I totally don't believe in things. People said I have changed. Really? I do not want to change either. I actually want to pour out all my problems, but as I start typing, I felt reluctant to do so. I really do not like telling my problems to people. I kept it all to myself. That is why I became so corrupted. It is really so unhealthy. I just don't dare or don't have someone to share with. Actually, I once had. But he has gone. I am really also afraid of the way people look at me or think of me. Hate it. I don't want to be who I am now. I really want a change in life. I want improvement in myself. I really want to break free from all my bad characteristic. sigh, what a boring post, sorry . I will make sure I upload something more interesting next time. T_T
Confidence, How?
5 raindrops:
Hi Kenny, I like your blog; it's simple and straightforward. Great song too!
Cheer up! Life is about change, and there's nothing wrong with one changing.
Do not bother what others say of you. What's important is that you believe in what you're doing, and that you are happy.
18 years old is the beginning if the stage where you find yourself, and strive to carve an identity for yourself. What you're experiencing is normal. I've been through it, I know.
Cheers to a great 2008!
Chinese Male, 27.
Male 28, I really thanks you for reading that particular post even though it clearly stated super boring post. I really appreciate those advice. Thanks.
eei, it should be "I really thank you" right? not thanks you. haha, me making mistake again.
Well, I don't it's a boring post. Hehehe...in fact, it's your true side. I'm sorry to hear that you have no one to talk to and share it.
If you don't mind, I can be your listener. Whenever you have anything that bothers you or something you cannot think of the solution, you are welcomed to email me, ok? I'll be glad to share it with you.
I truly understand how important it is to have someone who can actually understand you, right? So, if you don't mind, start emailing me ok?
I don't mind, I am scare you mind leh. XD
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