Tuesday, May 12, 2009

A Silent Love

I saw this story in my college notice board and I find it touching. So, I thought of sharing it.
From the very Begining, the girl's family objected strongly on her dating this guy. Saying that it has got to do with family background & that the girl will have to suffer for the rest of her life if she were to be with him.
Due to family's pressure, the couple quarrel very often. Though the girl love the guy deeply, but she always ask him: "How deep is your love for me?"
As the guy is not good with his words, this often cause the girl to be very upset. With that & the family's pressure, the girl often vent her anger on him. As for him, he only endure it in silence.
After a couple of years, the guy finally graduated & decided to further his studies in overseas. Before leaving, he proposed to the girl: "I'm not very good with words. But all I know is that I love you. If you allow me, I will take care of you for the rest of my life. As for your family, I'll try my best to talk them round. Will you marry me?"
The girl agreed, & with the guy's determination, the family finally gave in & agreed to let them get married. So before he leave, they got engaged.
The girl went out to the working society, whereas the guy was overseas, continuing his studies. They sent their love through emails & phone calls. Though it's hard, but both never thought of giving up.
One day, while the girl was on her way to work, she was knocked down by a car that lost control. When she woke up, she saw her parents beside her bed. She realised that she was badly injured. Seeing her mum crying, she wanted to comfort her. But she realized that all that could come out of her mouth was just a sigh. She has lost her voice......
The doctors says that the impact on her brain has caused her to lose her voice. Listening to her parents' comfort, but with nothing coming out from her, she broke down.
During the stay in hospital, besides silence cry,.....it's still just silence cry that companied her. Upon reaching home, everything seems to be the same. Except for the ringing tone of the phone. Which pierced into her heart everytime it rang. She does not wish to let the guy know. & not wanting to be a burden to him, she wrote a letter to him saying that she does not wish to wait any longer.
With that, she sent the ring back to him. In return, the guy sent millions & millions of reply, and countless of phonecalls,.. all the girl could do, besides crying, is still crying....
The parents decided to move away, hoping that she could eventually forget everything & be happy.
With a new environment, the girl learn sign language & started a new life. Telling herself everyday that she must forget the guy. One day, her friend came & told her that he's back. She asked her friend not to let him know what happened to her. Since then, there wasn't anymore news of him.
A year has passed & her friend came with an envelope, containing an invitation card for the guy's wedding. The girl was shattered. When she open the letter, she saw her name in it instead.
When she was about to ask her friend what's going on, she saw the guy standing in front of her. He used sign language telling her "I've spent a year's time to learn sign language. Just to let you know that I've not forgotten our promise. Let me have the chance to be your voice. I Love You. With that, he slipped the ring back into her finger. The girl finally smiled.

Monday, May 11, 2009

Women are difficult to please...

A store named "Husband mart" has just opened where a woman may goto choose a husband from among many men. The store has sixfloors, and the men increase in positive attributes as theshopper ascends the flights. There is, however, a catch:As you open the door to any floor you may choose aman from that floor, but if you go up a floor, you cannot goback down except to exit the building.

So a woman goes to the shopping center to find a husband.On the first floor the sign on the door reads:Floor 1 - These men have jobs. The woman reads the sign and says toherself, "Well, that's better than my last boyfriend, but Iwonder what's further up?"

So up she goes.The second floor sign reads: Floor 2 - These menhave jobs and love kids.The woman remarks to herself, "That's great, but I wonderwhat's further up?" And up she goes again.

The third floor sign reads: Floor 3 - These men have jobs, lovekids and are extremely good looking. "Hmmm, better" she says."But I wonder what's upstairs?"

The fourth floor sign reads: Floor 4 - These menhave jobs, love kids, are extremely good looking and help withthe housework. "Wow!" exclaims the woman, "very tempting. BUT,there must be more further up!" And again she heads up anotherflight.

The fifth floor sign reads: Floor 5 - These men have jobs, lovekids, are extremely good looking, help with the housework andhave a strong romantic streak. "Oh, mercy me! But just think...what must be awaiting me further on?"

So up to the sixth floorshe goes.The sixth floor sign reads: Floor 6 - You are visitor number 123,974,389,012,345 to this floor.There are no men on this floor. This floor exists solely asproof that women are impossible to please.Thank you for shopping at Husband Mart and have a nice day.

Saturday, April 18, 2009

Random rant

Let this be the last depressing post in this blog? Is it possible? I really hope is possible. I would prefer if I could post something that I am happy about rather than just writing out my rants. I lost the motivation to write; in fact I do not know what to write about anymore. It seems like I learned nothing new these days. Life is a mundane? Not really actually. There have been some up and down going on but I just prefer to keep it to myself, for the unhappy things, I would like to just forget about it. I do not want to remember any of the things that have happened. It is just like you wake up from a dream and could not recall what your dream is.

I must keep this blog alive. This blog represent my dream. I told myself that I will never close this blog till the day I see myself accomplishing my dream. However, I am really afraid now. I am afraid that I will just end this blog before anything comes true. It seems like my dream is just so far away. I realised that I am no longer in control of my own destiny anymore. It is just like you know you should be going this direction but you took the opposite direction instead. In life, it is just not about you. It involves people around you. So what if you have dream and passion? Your dream and passion is not everything you know. Is it because you want to live your dream, you can ignore others feeling? In life, we cannot be selfish. Yes, you can live your own dream if you know that you can rely on yourself and not dependent on others. Is it true that in life, good things are always things that you don’t like? For example, I hate eating banana but I know banana is good for health. I love eating salty and spicy food, but does that mean I can consume as much as I like? What are the consequences if you continue doing things that you like but in the end you know it is going to hurt you and troubled those around you?

What is my dream? Since young, I have always wished to be successful in the creative industry one day. I have great passion for art. I wish I could be a producer, director, creative director, actor and so on. I wish that one day people will recognise me for my work and talent. I do not need to become a multi millionaire or a billionaire. As long as I can support myself, afford to have a decent meal, a car to drive, decent clothes to wear, enough money for medical expenses if ever fall sick, can go traveling at least once a year and enough money to give my parents so that they can live a comfortable life too. Another most important dream is of course to have a partner, and the partner of course I wish was Alex. But I realise that none of this dream will ever going to come true. I just do not have a slight idea how all this will ever come true. I wish to pursue animation, but the course is so expensive and is totally unaffordable. To make matter worst, the salary for animator in Malaysia is so low. I will be wondering how long will it takes for me to pay off the debt. My mom has a got a high expectation on me. She do not hope to see me bringing no money home but in fact still need to depend on them for expenses. I could not blame her, I am the only child and I bear all the duties. I need to take care of my parents in the future. So in the end, I have to pursue ACCA course now. A course that is cheap and promise a good career. I do not like accounting, not even a bit. I do not have a slight passion for the financial world. How ignorant I am. Didn’t I know that having the adequate knowledge about financial is very important? People need people who understand how money works. What makes the world go around is money. However, what makes me want to pursue ACCA though I know is really tough and I do not like it is because I know this course will teach me a lot about financial matter in which I always lack the knowledge and also because YOU are there. Alex, is because he is there. How shallow am I. Another most important dream that I know is next to impossible, is to become his partner. I wish I am able to be at your side where ever you go. I am able to help you out. I am able to share your life.
Sometimes, I even have this fantasy where I see both of us corporate to build our own company and share life together till the day we grow old. How stupid...he will get married with some pretty lady and have children and I will just end up alone with nobody? No, that should not be the way either. Why must I always tell myself that I will end up alone? Am I that miserable? But I only love him alone. SAD!! Why do I always wish for the impossible? Why do I like to make things so complex? Everyone either aims to become doctor, lawyer, engineer, accountant and I am aim to create great animation like disney and ghibli, everyone get married and have children and I live my life wanting a guy as a partner. Now I end up doing accounting because I need to go with the flow, I am wondering if in the future if I will end up getting married and having a family because I need to go with the flow also? People around me will nag me if I did something that is not perceived as normal. I still haven’t reached that stage. I always choose to avoid it. I am afraid to face it. What a coward. Now I console myself that I have to learn accounting because I need to understand how money works to become rich so that I can survive, in future do I need to console myself again to get married and have children so that I will not end up lonely and having nobody to take care of me when I am old and also not to defame my family name? We need to do something, not because we like it but because we have no choice? HOW SAD!! I need to live my life to please others and go with the flow and live the normal life that is perceived as normal by the society? In the end, I will not see my dream come true? But my life will not be that bad either because when you take the road mostly taken you are usually safe and comfortable but never really satisfied?

I do not want to think anymore of what is going to happen in the future. No one can predict what is going to happen tomorrow. I learn to stop worrying now. So far, I did well. I am glad. When the thought of what will happen in the future come in to my mind I will try my best to brush it off. I need to focus on my current life. I need focus on my study. I need gain back my confident. Actually, I did not learn to stop worrying just like that. A word from someone gives me the strength. She said I need to stop worrying because things are going to change already. She said that is because I worried too much last time, there is too much negativity around me, and in the end I usually fail when doing something or either it will be quite difficult for me to do something. What she said is quite true. I am trying hard to change and I want to be positive person and hopefully things will really be good in the future. Maybe, just maybe, I will really be successful in the creative industry one day and also I can really spend my life with Alex....I dare not hope for it, but I live it to fate. One thing for sure, I can never stop loving something if I love something. Is not the same like what some people like to said, when you age, your mind will start to change. I love art and I know my passion for it will never die, I love Alex and I know I can never stop loving him. I am glad that at the moment I can spend so much time with you and I am glad our relationship is getting better each day. :)
The future not ask to see, que sera sera, what will be, will be...

Thursday, February 19, 2009

A peacock and a crow

I really feel so inferior and low self esteem today. I was talking to a customer today and I think he is just around my age, but the way he carry himself, the way he talk, walk, dress really make me feel so inferior about myself. I think he just got back from oversea because he speaks impeccable English. He keeps shooting me down with all sorts of question. I was very scare and nervous at that time because I am still new in my job and I am not clear about everything. He came with his mom. His mom just keeps quiet and he is the one doing all the talking. I was so nervous that I stammered. He is better than me so much in every way and I was actually admiring him. When he saw that I was nervous, he lost confident in what I said and told me that he will think about it and just walk off with an angry face. My boss scolds me after that saying that I failed miserably. T_____T

Where is the confident? Yes, I know I lost it long ago.

Tired already... time for bed...continue next time

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Transformer 2: Revenge of the Fallen Trailer




OMG!OMG! Is out finally!! The official trailer is finally here after waiting for so long. And today I have finally bought the jetfire and optimus prime. The shop only sell two set. So right now left with one set only. My camera is lousy, so click here if you want to see the image. And who is that cat/jaguar looking robot?? Is Ravage! For more image click here.


Short intro from wikipedia:


Sam Witwicky (Shia LaBeouf) discovers something about the origins of the Transformers and their history on Earth. The evil Decepticons need to capture him for information.[3] The climactic battle takes place at the Giza pyramid complex,[4] where a temple is located within.[3] Lorenzo di Bonaventura explained the film will show the Transformers who visited Egypt before the pyramids were built, and "all our heroes end up here because of the Decepticons' masterplan." Furthermore, Egyptian hieroglyphs resembling helicopters and other present day vehicles in real life will be explained in the film as being depictions of those Ancient Cybertronians who visited Earth.[2]

Their war, our world...

No sacrifice, no victory.

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Touching Ad

After the CNY ad i watched on Youtube, I go search for more touching ad and below is a few I got from a Thai Insurance Company ad. Very sad ad...





2009 CNY Ad

Below is the two CNY ad I find very touching for year 2009, both also very meaningful. What you think? I haven't watch all the CNY ad on TV, if you have better one, do share with me. :)